In the last four years I had always wished to get away from Durgapur. Living away of your place, having the most tasteless food every time, getting pissed off by the people around including your over interrupting landlady may make you feel like what I felt. But when I actually had to pack up my things and leave my college town, I felt devastated.
Anything which made me feel like home was our two roomed quarter in Bokaro Steel City where I had lived for seventeen years. When I left it I had nothing which I could call a home. The day my parents had to vacate their house in Bokaro and move to Gaya, I had cried. It was a feeling of losing stability, loss of something promising. I thought I would never feel the same for any other place and that is quite right. But just a few days back I felt a similar feeling of loss when I left Durgapur. Perhaps, my college town gradually had occupied a very special place in my heart.
Farewell party and the last get together.
Last day of college.
This feeling which I am going through these days makes me believe in some theory of stability. Everything in this universe wishes to stay stable. As a part of this process of ‘the universe attaining stability’, we are born, our solar system is born. Atoms do form bonds to attain duplet or octet to get a stable atomic configuration. We optimize computer codes. Everything is so willing to stabilize. Places where I got support, protection and love made me feel cozy and stable. And I am feeling low today for this new city doesn’t provide me with the feeling so same. It doesn’t eliminate the sense of temporariness from my life. So, I find myself attracted to the old life which I reluctantly said goodbye to.
If whatever I have poured down here doesn’t make sense even then, this had to find a place over here. This was something must to come as it’s the strongest feeling I am going through. College life is the best part of one’s life not just because it gives us freedom but also as during this time we learn, we change and develop according to our choices and not due to the opinions of others. I wish I get to cherish those wonderful days more that as much I am saddened today.